Obviously this touches the hearts of many women. Some words of reassurance for you. I had chronic SPD with the pregnancy of my first child 4 years ago now. I couldn't walk as my pelvis had over relaxed and had to resign myself to giving birth lying down with no movement whatsoever. After a 2 day labour my son was eventually born in theatre via forceps delivery. My legs were put in stirrups and i consequently couldn't walk for 2 weeks - I couldn't actually put one foot in front of the other. The episiotomy took so long to heal and eventually, at 6 months post birth, i found that i had mildly prolapsed in both bladder and rectum which was what was contributing to the feeling of laying an egg! No doctors seemed to be able to diagnose quite what was wrong so I went to see a gynaecologist who sent me to a physio at Kings. I was put on an intensive programme of pelvic floor exercise and the results were astonishing. It made me realise that post birth after care really is appalling and that (especially with episiotomy) there really should be some form of follow up. I know too many women who have suffered the long queues of the perinieum clinic at Kings, only to be put on intensive pelvic floor exercise regimes. Finally, after 2.5 years i felt as though i could go through another pregnancy and what with exercise throughout and an hypnobirthing CD, I had the most incredibly fast and natural birth without so much as a tear. One hour from start of contractions the very active astonishing birth of our baby girl. There is hope I promise you and after being a birth scare story monger, i really do feel as though i could do the whole thing again now. Hold on in there!