It took me a long time to get to a position where I was happy with myself again, nearly 3 years, but it does work out in the end. I was lucky that I have a very supportive and understanding GP who insisted on seeing me at least once a week for over 2 years, and a fantastic group of friends who I knew I could just turn up at their houses and just sit in the kitchen doing nothing. My relationship with my children is good now that I don't see them so much. Value your children, they will bring you huge amounts of pleasure and memories. This all happened from 2007 onwards, to give you an idea of timescale.