maybe you could ask someone on the forum who has responded if you can PM them your story, rather than post it to the whole world. You say you have to tell someone, but does that have to be a group? If it is very traumatic and potentially triggering I would sincerely doubt whether thrusting it into the lounge of this forum is a good idea. Much of the stuff on here is trivial and jokey, and although there are many serious discussions too they often get very impassioned and heated and personal. Which isnt necessarily conducive to the healing process.