Thanks for your post LadyDelilah. It was probably one of the most interesting and useful this forum has seen in a while. It made me think about how I've been living for quite a while now. I drink a lot and comfort eat and generally let myself go. This goes on for very long periods of time. Every now and again I turn things around and stop drinking but it never lasts. I am certainly not one for talking about 'feelings' and wholeheartedly understand you when mentioned fearing to appear weak at the prospect of having to medicate, but I know this can't go on. Maybe in the new year I should talk to a GP, does anyone know of one who's good with these kind of issues?? Thanks again LadyDelilah and all the best to you AlanMedic, maybe I can help one day.