susyp - chin up, you have absolutely done the right thing. There is no excuse for violence ever, and it doesn't matter if you were the most provocative shrew on earth, it is still not your fault. Nor it is your fault that you became ill. Please repeat this a million times a day: "It is not my fault". Remember also, that verbal abuse is a form of domestic violence. It is perpetrated mostly by professional types (lawyer, vicars, teachers, etc) and is no less damaging than physical abuse. Your sanity is as precious as your good health. As a single parent I can't pretend it's easy, but you just have to get on with it. You don't have to be a perfect parent - no-one can be, just do enough to look after yourself and your daughter. My one piece of advice is that I found the most difficult thing was having to make all the decisions (eg discipline, choice of school, etc) myself. You might find it helpful to build up a network of friends/family/godparents/ over the next few years that you can approach for sounding-board purposes for when these occasions arise. You have taken the most difficult step so be proud of yourself for already being a good parent to your little girl.