Maybe I phrased my sentence incorrectly when I said it would be a 'sad place'. It will be a place that will feel different to me. His soul will not have been a happy one. No one taking their own life can possibly leave on the earth a happy and full-filled soul; no matter how much they wanted to kill themselves. And yes, elderly Victorians or indeed Victorians of any age have probably died in my house But then again, their deaths were before my time so I have no knowledge of them. Different to being in the park last night, to actually have run past the Japanese pagoda, only to find out the news this morning. That does make me sad. I can't remember seeing anyone, but it goes though my mind...did I pass him somewhere else in the park? Was he sitting on one of the benches, was he taking a walk down one of the avenues?....it makes me feel odd in a way I can't describe.