If we can't cry for our mothers then who else is worthy? Your mother was a most remarkable woman BN; she shielded everyone, from 1947 until has last day. There are many people whose feelings need to be carefully considered and I know you want to be sensitive to those involved. Very important that you speak to someone who is experienced in matters of adoption. Although your mother didn't want you to tell anyone, don't forget that in her mind she had done something shameful. Maybe you have a half sister who would rather be left alone; or maybe she needs to know that she had a mother who mourned her loss for half a century. Maybe your father, brother, aunts and uncles would be better left in ignorance but maybe they would cherish your mother's memory even more for knowing the sacrifice she made. You have some tough decisions ahead of you and I hope you find the wisdom to make them.