But music means so much more to your younger self because it speaks of other places, times and people. The future is out there and you are off to discover it Now, you can barely find the time to cook for yourself in between keeping bairns happy along with work pressures and domestic chores (in your specific case, chores is too small a word for "the project" but the point stands) You know more than you did then. You can forget about all that on ocassion, but for much shorter spells. And that's all ok really. You still enjoy music more in your 40s than the previous generation did (generalisaton alert)