If you had a traumatic experience, it's pretty certain that you can choose a CS for the second/ next. The choice was offered to me for my second and I felt fully supported and properly looked after at KCH. Counselling is great - if you think you need it - you do! Look around, find someone you work well with - move on if not. Bear in mind though, they are supposed to get much easier after the first one - and a CS is a pretty serious operation. Maybe you find that talking it through makes it all ok. Best wishes - do what you feel comfortable with.